Yesterday she and I worked in her room all day long cleaning, organizing and junking it out. She seemed happy to be playing in there, and kept calling the faeries on the wall "pretty!" I was thinking this was a good sign! I couldn't have been more wrong!
I miss watching TV in our room before bed. I miss being able to get ready for work in the morning in our room. I miss not having to silently fold and put away laundry in the dark if I happen to not get it done before bed time. I was feeling like I was ready to have our room back.
So, when my hubby got home from work last night, I told him after dinner, we were moving her crib. He was shocked and not too thrilled about it. He wasn't ready to move her. He likes having her in with us. Plus, he told me he didn't think I was really ready. I argued with him and told him it was no big deal, and I was totally ready! Because he's the worlds best husband, he went along with it, and started the process.
Turns out he may have been more right then me, becasue when I walked into our room and saw him taking her crib apart, I burst into tears and told him maybe I was wrong and we should wait. He looked at me like I was insane, and asked if I really wanted him to stop. I hummed and hawed and told him no, that it was now or never.
So, an hour later, we had her cozy crib all set up and ready for her in her new room.
At first she seemed kinda into it! She seemed to like her new space. She seemed happy to be in her bed.
This was (is!) for sure one of those times where I was wondering why on earth this little person didn't come with a freaking manual, cuz I had no flippin clue what I was doing!
So, after an hour long freak out, we gave in, and my husband set up the Pack N'Play in our room, and we moved her in there. She happily finished her bottle, cuddled in, and went to sleep.
And you know what? I was SO relieved she was where she was. I was so glad to go to bed a couple hours later and have her right there. And I was even thrilled when she woke up at 1:30am and asked to come into our bed with us.
We've agreed to go with baby steps for now, and just play it by ear. She's currently happily napping in her new room as I write this! No problem at all to get her to lay down and go to sleep. I will attempt bedtime in there again tonight, but if she decides she doesn't want to sleep in there, I will be not-so-secretly happy, and I'll move her to the Pack N'Play in our room.
Some might call me a push over, and maybe I am. Some may say she rules the roost, that's OK, she does! A happy baby is all I care about, and if that means I take instructions from her (to a certain extent!), then that's just the way it is. It's all about give and take.
Love and Hugs